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fool [Aug. 3rd, 2006|02:30 pm]
[mood |aggravatedaggravated]
[music |Te Aviso Te Anuncio - Shakira]

im such a fool and so so blind.
what was i thinking? i think too much

nunca pensé que doliera el amor así
cuando se entierra en el medio de un no y un si...
por ti me quedé como Monalisa
sin llanto y sin sonrisa
que el cielo y tu madre cuiden de ti...
se que olvidarte no es asunto sencillo
te me clavaste en el cuerpo como un cuchillo...
tal vez tu no eres ese para mí...

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mushi mushi [Jul. 31st, 2006|03:29 pm]
[mood |sillysilly]
[music |La Noche - Juanes]

went to china fireworks saturday night at kits beach, OM and i played text tag again, went to Rugby Club after for drinks, tried to sit close to OM but it wasn't possible. Some people are just fast at sitting down i guess. haha. damn
remember that song by the strokes "meet me in the bathroom"? i nearly had a personal experience with that (yes again). too bad someone had to drink 5 glasses of water and had to go at the same time.
i had a bikini martini
sunday i "had breakfast with a friend" until 3.
massages tend to lead to other stuff as i found out
"its rude not to look at someone when they're talking to you"
stuble is kinda sexy

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champagne anyone? [Jul. 29th, 2006|04:06 pm]
[mood |lonelylonely]
[music |Bang Bang (My baby shot me down) - Nancy Sinatra]

saw fireworks wednesday night, saw OM and interesting night. happy yet still confused. im getting tired.
went to plaza yesterday. guy nearly drooled on me, black guy thought maria and i were lesbian lovers, big huge brown guy wanted to dance, met italians from roma, danced with OM for a while and denny'd it at 3 am
i dont know what to think anymore. how do i act? do i show that i care? tough luck this could be his?
i dont know anymore. i just dont.
im tired now.
i shouldn't care. i shouldn't let this affect me. but i do.
whatever. i guess. yo no sabes.
ay me duele tanto
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silly girl [Jul. 25th, 2006|02:28 pm]
[mood |ecstaticecstatic]
[music |chand sifarish - fanaa]

sunday i went to robson square and tried to salsa while everyone around me seemed to have been born salsaing and never stopped. they were that good. no te juro.
we went to the tango 8 grill where i learned how to tango argentinian style. i swear i'll go back there. i loved it.
stayed for dinner, danced a bit and then that was it. nearly left my phone in his car. but that was quickly resolved.

monday i was surprised and utterly giddy at work because of one conversation. i was blushing and i couldn't wipe that silly smile off my face. whatever happens happens, right? take the back seat approach. but bloody hell. i think i should be more confused than i was.

finish fanaa and it was such a good movie. i cried. duh. when dont i cry in movies? love amir khan. love love. i dil him.

and to top it off, the life of working me: i had a three hour nap yesterday. woke up at 11pm. huzah!

fireworks this week? clubbing for OM?
we'll see what this week brings...
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como? [Jul. 19th, 2006|03:07 pm]
[mood |blahblah]
[music |Lo Imprescindible - Shakira]

Una maquina
De pensar en ti
Eso es lo que soy
Lo que siempre fui
Sabes que me está matando esta espera cruel

Una maquina
De vivir sin paz
Eso es lo que soy
Desde que no estas
Dices que no tiene caso reaccionar así
Que has hecho tu elección
Que viva y deje vivir
Pero no quiero romper el lazo que me ata a ti
Ten consideración y no me dejes sufrir
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dalla morte l'italia!!!! [Jul. 18th, 2006|05:33 pm]
[mood |confusedconfused]
[music |procura - chichi peralta]

i guess its too late to poste this but italia are champione del mundo (and i think thats half in spanish and half in italian...)
went down to commercial with friends to watch my raggazzi go on to win in shoot outs. we were there at 9am.
forza italia! way to go azzurri! just one behind brazil!
i lost my voice screaming my amor por italia and it was soo worth it. i need to scream more if i want to get a sexy voice.
there were soo many drool worthy men on commercial. seriously where are they hiding when italy isn't playin? or there isn't world cup? seriously? where? i'd like to know please.

went to greek festival two nights in a row. saturday and sunday. super le fun.

and now that world cup is over i have no idea what to do with my days. im working monday to fridays and im feeling old. i feel like an adult. im tired at 6 in the evening and i can pass out at 9. not cool.

mushi boys are stupid. or maybe its just me.
Yo te quiero tanto y porque sera loco testarudo.
No lo dudes mas aunque en el futuro haya un muro enorme - yo no tengo miedo.
Quiero enamorarme.
im still looking for my toasty man. my plan is to go to the international house at ubc and pick up latino guys there. well not really. i'll just walk in and floor them all with my foxyness and coquetta-ness. that they'll be seduced and then come pick me up. and i'll act all shy and flirty and embarrassed cause i didnt expect it but really i did. i'll say yes and then they'll be my hot bfs. yay!

ha. or not. i'll become cat lady. joy.

one month since mexico. tengo la camisa negra hoy mi amor esta de luto
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royal decameron [Jun. 27th, 2006|12:27 am]
[mood |giddygiddy]
[music |lo que paso - daddy yankee]

finished summer classes on the 14th and 15th...then had 2 days of no school freedom to do whatever i wanted before i jetted off to mexico.
left on the 18th for a week of uber fantastic fun. came back late last night and im so jealous of all the people still there.
lets just say that people from guadalajara rock, tongue rings are shockingly interesting and mexican's can freaking dance
i want my own toasty mexican man
"good girls win champaign, bad girls win beer"
i heart reggaeton so much more now
beach, pools, white sand, muggy hot weather, bronzed skin, free bar, spanish...
when can i go back? asap please

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football fever [Jun. 10th, 2006|01:02 pm]
[mood |giddygiddy]
[music |E Menina - Sergio Mendes]

i woke up this morning at 6am to watch england vs. paraguay (england won 1-0 but it was an OW by paraguay), fell asleep for an hour, then watched sweden vs. trinidad and tobago (tied 0-0) and now its argentiva vs. cote d'ivoire (freaking hell man. i even saw maradona snort crack live on tv. wtf mate)
wednesday night i had a late night convo (like 3 hours almost) with the OM, wrote my paper (800 words in one night. booyeah baby). finished it the next day and then thursday night i had another late night convo with OM (i dont even remember picking up my phone, i just remember saying hi and thats all) until like 3am. and you guessed it. last night i got the call again.
im not complaining. hehe. i actually look forward to the calls.
other news, im done my 2 papers. and screw it. i dont care what i get. i got 2 finals next week. hmm...futbol or study?
the azzurri play monday. i can't wait!!!!!!
forza raggazzi!

ps~ what i was so happy for 6 months (or even less from my point, come to think about it) is now over. no regrets
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ek paradesi mera dil le gaya [May. 28th, 2006|12:56 pm]
[mood |confusedconfused]
[music |pr'desan - dya singh]

oi :(
so i was so smart when i chose to take 2 summer courses in 1 summer term. woo. go sonia.
it's just about killing me.
plus i have to work.
i think i'll only go in 2 days this week. cause i need to start and actually write my 2 papers for my poli sci courses.
it doesn't help that i have so much on my mind.
boys are stupid.
but thats not fair cause sometimes girls are stupid too.
im always nervous and anxious and feeling guilty and sad. wtf. im slowly killing myself.
i want my vacation now.
technically for me. my summer hasn't started. and i want it now
i think i dont want what i have now. what i want is something different and i know people can't change. oddly and selfishly i dont wnat to work it out. i just want it to end. but i want every party to be happy, not bitter, and no fits thrown. i know im being such a baby and incredibly selfish.
its harder for me cause i feel so guilty and bad.
its like when you see a toy on tv and you keep seeing that commercial for that toy that you want sooo badly and you keep bugging your parents and your friends and your family for that toy and then when you finally get it after months and months of waiting for christmas or for your bday and when you finally open it up and tear away the wrapping paper and you finally lay your eyes on that toy that you wanted oooh so badly....
and its not as good as you thought it would be
that basically sums it all up for me.
'cept that i feel uber bad that i bugged everyone for it and that i set my hopes on it and then now im sorta stuck with it and i dont want it anymore...
it would have been great when i was in high school but im not. and i dont want to be reminded of that. high school was great but thats then. i want something more. something different.

*le sigh*
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da star [May. 18th, 2006|05:05 pm]
[mood |contentcontent]
[music |mas que nada - sergio mendes feat BEP]

i've started working now. at club intrawest and im dead tired. i dont do any hard labout or anything. just office work. so its boring as hell. and i swear i'll end up doing something wrong and the members will be "Disgusted" with me and want to complain.
i've seen a ton of movies since the end of school. and im loving that uni ends in april. no annoying high school kids around or anything. i loved "city of god" and that football (soccer) movie with eligha wood. and i saw some other stuff.
i've hung out with ed, mayssoun and rahul most of the time.
went to plush last saturday. didn't really like it. sleezy atmosphere and weird people. i wouldn't go there without any guys. unless i wanted to get raped.
im addicted to joga tv and yesterday i went down to commercial to watch the final champion's league game (barca vs. arsenal) and it was wicked. went with ed, the boyfriend, pat and jenine.
it was le awesome. after the game we just chilled in the park and did nothing but kick a soccer ball around and sorta bask in the heat.
i can't freaking wait for world cup. blooody hell.
we might go to mexico 3rd week in june. or it could be 4th...and it might not even be mexico. could be hawaii or dominican republic or something like that. i just want to go somewhere. where there's a beach. but i'd rather not tan that ugly brown i go. like i've worked in the village in india or something.
maybe i'll ask if i can go to UK end of august or something like that.
i just want to sleep. i've started summer courses too (2 poli sci's) and that with work is just about making me an 80 year old man. all i want to do is sleep.
i dont know what else to write. i want to go to brazil for some reason.
freaking like 20 days till world cup (well not really but close enough)
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